Friday, December 14, 2007

the sail.........

Hi again, dear reader

So this blog post is when I am in midst of leaving another great institute, BITS-Pilani Goa campus.This time, its to one of best institute in India, IIT Madras.
I was just recalling the path I came. It's really strange. You may remember I was telling, the things you may not even dream or you feel will be what comes to your way.

What will be your feeling after getting a degree!!! masters or work?
Normal question people will ask you. You will say work because everybody says so
Or people will say, oh you go for MBA and get a better position.

When I passed out, really I was in darkness or like in the middle of the sea, witout a compass. Everywhere it's water. Sometime with thunderstome. I was facing a lot of questions.
But can you see a different picture altogether in such a situation. Standing with out compass, is much more pleasant, for you are free to sail to any direction. But there is no sailing back. I was feeling like Columbus trying to find a route to India. He finally landed up in America. I still did not land.
All that I knew at that time, was I do not want to be in so called highly paid "s/w" job. And a lot of questions in mind. For me its neither so "SOFT" nor a living. Is that the only way to live? Why do all running for it? Is it like flies attracted to a lamp? Is it necessary to earn 4lakh per annum to make a living?
Confused? There were" so many" questions. I asked my friends. Some one laughed at me, like "ye kya bakwas bolthe hei". For them its stupidity, but for me its not. I was asking myself, IT is called a new field. So why can not we go for learning more and do some thing new. ( the definition for "new" was totally unclear at that point.... still).
Soon after completing my course, I found everybody busy with getting to a job, or already placed people trying again for "so called better" jobs. I asked some of them "why company A you believe is better than company B?" Or what do they do ultimately? Many of them did not even know that what they were going to do after joining. Many of the mechanical, electronics guys or even I found people from Science degrees has been recruited to these software jobs. I could not understand, why do people take degree in mechanical or electrical and go for something they have seen only for watching movies or gaming or ch(e)atting.
I was confused, "arey am right or wrong". Then I learned one more thing, we are in same boat. They do not know what they are going to do. Me too. Difference is that they are definite that they are going to earn and I am not sure.
In an unexpected way, I joined in one of the colleges in Trivandrum as a guest faculty. I started earning. Lol that was really great experience, to eat with what you earned.
Still I was wondering, is it the correct direction I am sailing. But I started liking the job and the satisfaction I got with feedbacks from my students. To serve them better I started studying for GATE. It was not to achieve good score, but to make myself better. The score came was 2100 around rank all over india. I did not know when I scored that, it's good or bad.
Appreciations came to me, and questions again. "So you are going to join NIT right?" will you get in to IIT? Why can't you get much more better score? Which area you are going to work?

Are yaar, what these fellows are talking? I did not even think. My decision was to work again. Thus joined the next institute, with a label of permanent faculty. Again I wrote GATE in 2006. That time, I had work of 5-6 hours per day and hostel duties. But with momentum of first GATE score, I kept reading atleast half an hour to max 1 hr per day. The paper was so tough that I used the tactics I used in Engineering, to write answers.
lol, when result came, I found I scored 938 as new rank and a score of 435.
Again Questions. By this time, I know how to close my ears . People ask questions. But hardly a few needs an answer. Thank god, by this time I learned how to "sail". From that institute to an institute with brand name "BITS", the distance was too short. The interview was unexpected and BITS was never marked as a place in my sail before. From BITS to IIT Madras, its again totally unexpected. At least I dreamt to become an IITan in childhood. And when dream came true, my mind is empty.

tooo strange............. that is the sail in life
Thank you for your time to sail with me, and we will have some more entertaining sessions in next postings
bubye 4 now

3 comments:

the fire dat shines said...

its nice to read ur blog .....
m glad dat ur sail has found a dirction....
m now at the same point as u once wer ... confused ....
diff ppl giv me diff sugestions ...
its up2 me to finally take a descion.... well ,
aftera lot of thinkin i hav decided to take d easy way out n let life choose 4 me ....
will go werevr life will take me ...
as of nw , i hav decided to work 4 sum tym , b4 trying 4 MBA again nxt year ...

Preethi Chandur said...

Nice post :) Sometimes the fun in the journey lies in the means rather than the destination, I am sure you enjoyed the means as much as you enjoyed reaching the destination.

Gireesh said...

@pc
well, many a time i did not enjoy the means. I think it is difficult 2 enjoy the bitter gourd juice while i drink it, but i can enjoy the goodness of that later. The diff is that, while drinking juice ppl may not ask u weired questions, but in certain decisions in life, ppl may laugh at u!!!!
thank god that I had and have engh friends. Most of them dont know the troubles i faced, but they believed in my abilities. That part I was happy....